Monochrome

Technicolor girls are always on the phone. Apparently, I am not a technicolor girl. I'm taking a weekend off this weekend. Its sort of difficult, but I think it will give me better perspective in the long run, considering that next weekend is going to be 5 straight days of job interviews and alternate fun. If only I could settle down.

Sometime I cannot calm down because I'm so terrified of becoming boring. This makes me an entertaining person, I'm sure, but I forget to remember what my future holds.

I can't begin to compete with you and everyone knows you know I know its you. Its a complicated fear and its walking on its own finally.

Ben Gibbard is a genius.

C+ in life

All my pictures are overexposed and it makes me feel awful.

However, I re-joined choir today and I can't wait to start singing again.
It seems the only productive thing I do these days is learn Bon Iver songs. We did a sort-out-your-priorities kind of exercise in church last night and mine ended up having nothing to do with music in the long run. Time to re-prioritize.
My top 6 were:
marriage
children
evangelism
friendship
traveling
master's degree

I had to sacrifice my own spiritual maturity for evangelism. I had to sacrifice knowledge for my master's degree. I had to sacrifice music for friendship.
What kind of convoluted life will I lead?
I'd much rather have:
children
beauty
traveling
knowledge
music
spiritual maturity

Children instead of marriage, beauty instead of friendship, music instead of evangelism, knowledge instead of degrees. Unfortunately, life does not work in such a way.

Hello!

This is a venture in creative writing, or something of the sort. It will, IT WILL, consist of complete thoughts, capital letters, good punctuation, and, if good fortune is with me, good grammar. First of all, let me explain my blog title: "falls the shadow". It's from a poem by Eliot that I shall post when my life is a little bit more orderly.

Between the idea
And the reality
Between the motion
And the act
Falls the shadow